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Friday 28 March 2008
Fun + Exhausting + Slight Disappointment = FTPSS Sports Carnival 2008 Today is FTPSS Annual Sports Day 2008.. I thought that our class had no hope at all for today, and so 3e1 was ready to take the shame.. But it turned out differently.. We qualified for the final rounds of 4x100 Girls Relay and 4x100 Mix Relay.. and yea tat really boosted my mood... But we didnt win anything in the end...*upset* It was a close call anw..and yea..GOOD GAME =D Haiz..I couldn't believe that I actually enjoy being in pain.. Yesterday already scarred my face.. Today I scratched my arms and left purple marks... Straight away after I saw her *ever-stunning*[?] smile when she was with Mr. A, my fingers took a mind of their own for the 2nd time and scarred my arms... and I would be lying if I say tat I didn't enjoy it..I felt a bit 'high' [well, really, juz a bit..] At least after I scratched myself, the pain went away and I started to be feelingless again.. Gosh! This can't continue..Endorphins is simply addictive... Btw, for the benefit of those who dunno what Endorphins is, it is "a substance which the body produces when one tortures him/herself, such as cutting wrist etc. Endorphins gives a 'high' feeling to Emo people. Those Emo people enjoy having Endorphins... " Source: Novi Juwita. Anw, after the sports event was closed, went to eat at Fork&Spoon with Lady Gang, Zul and Archie.. Then headed straight for home with Zul..went to sleep and tuition... At evening, watched Naruto Shippuuden [finally found the unlicensed versions XD].. P.S. : Don't look for Endorphins, peeps..Be strong on ur own...=) Wednesday 26 March 2008
Confidence left in me: 0% Yo, people! Havent been blogging recently, so here's a new post.. Finally, finally and finally.. settled everything with her already, and yeah, tat means I've officially given up^^.. Still, I havent learnt my lessons yet I dunno what wrong I did, and which attitude of mine landed me in this state.. Well, there'll be plenty of time to figure them out, wont there? Anyway, schooling work is as depressing as ever...*sigh* Today didnt attend CCA, I went for the Speech Day Rehearsal. I thought it will be better than attending CCA, but it wasnt as what I wished earlier. It was boooooooring...especially if what u did was mostly sitting on a bench. Oh, man. I'll get a "heaty butt" if I juz sat there 'till 5.30 =.=' Anw, to summarise, my current feeling; 1). Feelingless 2). Confused 3). Dunno what to do next 4). Have 0% confidence now...*sigh* Any kind Samaritans willing to guide me??? Some advices may do XD... Sunday 23 March 2008
I'll back off and numb my own heart.. Haiz..3e1's life is really suckin' out my youth.. Today was filled with almost homework..homework and yes..homework.. Even until now, I know I should be doing my homework instead of blogging, but man, I wanna have a break for a while! Congratz to Liao Wei and Alan, they decided not to give up on IT..nice moves, dudes! =D For my case, I'm getting more convinced that I should stop getting in her way.. And the more I feel that I should just let Mr. A and her be together^^.. That way, it'll be easier for me oso to get over her...=) So what I'd do next is to back off, then numb my heart.. I really wanna stop having this feeling!!!!!!!!! It's so painful that it's becoming unbearable already...:'( Saturday 22 March 2008
Some good poems... Copyrighted 2008 Novi Juwita All Rights Reserved This one's made for me, for me to dedicate to her... So I guess you’re no longer here for me, But your presence still lingers in my torn heart Tattooed deep inside me Apparently letting you go is not as easy as I thought Hoping that you’ll come back here,beside me Be mine and my only one This one's made by Novi, dedicated to me [thx! =D] If this is the path you choose to go on with, I’ll never say a thing bout your decision Nor try to change a shit of it Just don’t let those smiles on your face fade away This one's a real poem, made for that "Mr. A" [see the previous post] actually =.=...but anw, still looks suitable for me, since I STILL ASSUME that we both like da same girl.. No, not again… I don’t wanna fall in love anymore Loving you, it hurts, painful with no gain but lookin at you with another man, it hurts even more I shouldn’t have asked you that, It cut through my heart deeply Stabbed my throat That I cant even say a thing recently
Let me be heartless so I won't feel anything.. Today is seriously a bad day.. Other than stressed up with a lot of homework, I don't think my group will be able to do the EL Pict Discussion Project tomorrow, which was as planned... Haiz..Got possibilities can fail this project.. I apologised to Archie, for forgotting to hand in his work to teachers, especially Mr. Sim..he had to go for Prep. Camp on Monday and so gave the homework to me and then I was supposed to hand in to all teachers.. But yea, I forgot abt it.. He was stressed up with my actions, he knew that Mr. Sim's gonna scold him like heaven for sure..and anw he lost his HP at Sentosa also.. I'm feelin' super guilty even 'till now.. The thing is he was freakingly disappointed in me, and I've never disappointed a friend so much in my life.. Anyway, one friend of mine told this story to me.. Her fren [juz assume he's Mr. A], liked this girl in our sch, and coz he knew tat this girl already has a crush, he was pretty depressed..and she felt sorry for him.. I asked who this girl was, and she said tat she had promised Mr. A to keep it a secret. She dropped a list of girls, though. "Mr. A's crush was on da list", she said. Shocked, I must honestly say tat the only girl on tat list possible to be Mr. A's crush is oso MY CRUSH! Not tat I'm afraid to fight fairly for this girl with Mr. A.. and yea although I've told myself not to worry abt it, I couldnt help feeling anxious.. I still assume that we both had our hearts on da same girl... Suddenly, around evening, HER msn PM was saying tat she "doesnt want anyone"... Seriously, it gave me an impression that she's getting fed up with me and Mr. A [both of us are really serious in our crushes]... I know I shouldnt think soooo much...since I still dunno who Mr. A likes. Neither is it my concern... But I STILL ASSUME that we both like da same girl.. and the thought of her saying tat she wanted no one really shattered my heart.. Ok, the way I talk is getting random..and I suppose most of u peeps dun understand what I've written above... I juz wanna give up on her, since she was already so fed up..I'll try, no matter how hard.. And to Archie, is there anything I could do to make it up??? 1stly, I've let a friend sooooo down, and 2ndly, it seemed hopeless for me and her... My heart is shattered... Anyone can suggest me how to make an unbreakable heart, how to freeze a heart??? Whatever, I juz wanna be heartless for once, so I cant feel anything *wishful thinking* P.S. To Alan: Try to cheer up, homie! and come back soon! Friday 21 March 2008
Back from da most exciting camp ever in my life! Sry, should have posted abt da camp yesterday..but something personal cropped up..and to Alan: my deepest sympathy..remember tat ur holmes will always be there for ya! =) OK, back to da sec 3 camp thing! DAY 1: *assembled at sch, headed to the camp *upon reaching, got a briefing..then went to pitch da tent..It looked hard but it actually wasnt when u pitched da tent in groups. *Outdoor lunch..Maggie Mee [juz as expected ==]..but it wasnt tat bad, since they included sardine as well..anw, Hot weather + hot cooking + exhaustion = Puddles of Sweat *Tyre Tunnel..We all had fun! Seeing the girls struggling through their way was a bit comical too..hahaha *no offense, girls*. In contrast, the fastest among us was a girl, Zee. She was like rocketing pretty easily through the tunnel, despite a few shouts..lol *Then after that, Milo Pond!!!!! Looked scary oso at first, but after went down to the water, the feeling was like "i wanna try it again!"..and yea i did try it for the 2nd time... *without a bathe, after that straight away changed clothes then went for High Elements! Seriously u could feel the Adrenaline! WOOW, and the Kanchiong Me went to try all da available High Elements stations =.= *Then we did General Stations [Entrapment & Low Wall]..we made a new record of 4mins+ in Low Wall, but was defeated by 3e3 the next day, haiz.. *After tat had dinner..dinner was much better than the lunch..lol *Next,nightwalk..the 3e1 boys were the first group to go..and i was the first person in the platoon *scary*..but it wasnt tat bad..The Indian trainers gave us reflection on how was the time during Japanese Occupation.. *Afterwards, supper and Debrief..oh yea, oso wrote some reflection..after that waited till nobody bathed anymore, 3e1 boys bathed. We slept quite late..All da 'talk cock' was freakin' fun!!!!!! DAY 2: *everyone was late for breakfast..but the trainers didnt really mind...phew *Here was one of da most exciting activities, Kayaking!!!! At first i was scared i would capsise or something, but I didnt. Sadly for Jose and Mars, they did capsise and Jose lost his specs. And yea, it was tiring my hand. To move the paddlers [dunno how to spell], a great force was needed. *next, we went rock climbing..As expected, I couldnt climb higher than 1/3 of da wall =.=''''' *After lunch, it was a heavy rain, and as a result, I missed THE FLYING FOX!! ARGHHH GIVE IT BACK TO ME T_T...3e1 only managed to do the Abseiling..anw it was oso freaking exciting!!!! AWOAHHHH *After bathe and dinner, came the CAMPFIRE! I lost most of my voice there =.= and although i was already so sleepyyyy, The Campfire was the most fun during da camp..AWOAHHH... *After that, supper and debrief again, wrote some reflections and came the talking cock inside the tent among the 3e1 boys before we went to sleep...*zzz* DAY 3 *T_T* *1st thing in da morning, packing up things and then returned the canvas floorboards.. *then we were in da breakfast *After that, the trainers taught us how to strike the tent..A quite tedious process but it was done quite quickly by 3e1..huhuhu *Next, 3e1 were asked to clean 2 teacher dorms [including their toilet] and the trainer's toilets..quite tiring also and although most of us slacked here, I must say that this was also quite fun! *After final debrief and prize presentation [3e1 didnt win anything T_T], we went back to school. lunch were not included in the camp..oh yea and Alan had a family emergencies and he went home with his guardian before we started area cleaning.. My Rating for this Sec 3 Annual Camp *Campsite: OK *Sleeping tent: not very nice but sleeping with da 3e1 covered up the negative traits..lol *Food: Not badd.. *Toilet: Average.. *Activities: FREAKIN'LY FUN!! 11/10 star rating!!! lol *Trainers: Discipline, Funny, Kind; Best trainers I have ever seen! *Overall rating: 10/10! The best camp I have ever had.. And I realised that when I finally arrived at home, I got a 'Campsick' [relatives to Homesick, i think]..I miss da camp so much. I miss da trainers and da activities! [to 3e1 trainers, Natalie, we love ya!!!! U ROCK!!! =D] After that, whole day was spent consoling Alan, yea he is in Bali now..Once again, my deepest sympathy, homie! P.S. : I LOVE SEC 3 CAMP, esp u all funny trainers! Once again, YA ALL ROCK!!!!! XD Monday 17 March 2008
Tml will be da Sec 3 Camp! YEAHH.. Personally, I must say I don't really like/enjoy camp.. But this case is different.. I'm excited for da Sec 3 Camp da next day 'till Thursday! What in the world... Ok, after some self-reflection *boo*, I thought it may because of the fact that a lot of flowing-with-excitement peeps were enthusiastic for tml's camp..AWOAHH.. Today was extremely sleepy anyway...Sleeping for only frm 5am to 6am wasn't a good idea at all [kids don't try this at home, ok?] As a result, school day was filled with drowsiness.. Something great happened during remedial..I won't forget that..haha..Find out if u wanna know what that was..;p Last thing, I won't be blogging 'till Thursday. But I'll tell a lot abt da camp in da next post ok? Cya Peeps! Sunday 16 March 2008
Why holidays always fly so quickly?!?! And yea dude, it's da end of Term 1 holidays already! What the..I barely enjoy it and it already flies to other planet..*sigh* Another thing, I haven't touched my homework along da holidays. *well, as if I will remember what homework I have* Today was a sleeping day again...At 6pm, went to church 'till 8pm. Went home, chatted, opened msn, bla3x, those usual stuffs After realising that there's more homework than it appeared, I dragged myself to take my pen and paper, and began to do.. Anw, seriously speaking, after such a long sleep, I still feel that I can hibernate for another 12 hours or so. What a lazy bump..=,=''' P.S. : I WANT MY HOLIDAY BACK!!!!
The day only started at evening.. The title of this post should probably sum up all the contents. hahaha.. I mean it. I woke up 10.30 today [juz to have tuition with 50% alertness] At 12, planned to take a few-minutes-nap. It turned out to be a 2-hrs-sleep... Woke up at 2pm, ate my lunch. Slept again for 1 hour Watched a few serials on the Internet 'till 5. Then bathed, got ready to go out.. Went to eat dinner with my aunt. She arrived at Singapore yesterday and would fly back to Jakarta tomorrow. So fast T_T Anw, after that, two cousins and I went to Takashimaya, and walked around. Suddenly, one of the cousins had a stomach problem, and thus went to toilet to 'get down with his business'. I was amazed by the fact that he actually spent abt 50 mins in the cubicle. What the...=.=' Then went back home, chatted for a while. Anw, I cant sleep yet. She said she would contact me as soon as she finishes watching her movie and yea, I gave her my word that I'll stay awake, waiting for her ^_* Cya around peeps! Friday 14 March 2008
New blog... Here it is, finally my blog is done. After To get started, I'll juz review what happened today.. My handphone got splashed by water!!! And it was enough to spoil my whole afternoon. First, the keypad '6' and '9' malfunctioned, followed by the Power button. As I was gettin' more frustrated with the situation, I discovered that the Camera could not be turned on. The worst had yet to come, as I recognised soon after that the phone's speaker had stopped functioning as well. Luckily I remembered my past experience.. So I quickly took out a hair dryer, and frantically tried my best to dry my handphone.. Even to the extent of opening the case... The result was relieving..HALLELUYA..it came back to life... That's all for now folks...I'll keep this blog updated..^_* |