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Sunday 28 March 2010
Where is it?

I now see something missing out from me.




Motivation




I didn't know what have happened.



If I recall just about few months ago, before my O Level period, I was totally into studying, even though there wasn't much to do except revising and revising.



Now? Even with so much work to do, I don't feel the drive in me to do all of them.



I have about 5 work which is due tomorrow.
I have a lot of upcoming lecture tests.
I have much to catch up academically.
But where in the world is my motivation to do all of them??????




If it's here, I am really sure I can finish all of them in no time.
But now?
I've planned to divide all these work for yesterday and today but now, I haven't even started anything.



I'm feeling soooooooo lazy that I would just dump all my paperwork somewhere and heck care about it.







I guess I just have to persevere.
And hope that I'll regain my motivation along the way.


Friday 26 March 2010
A day with my homie.



Me and some guys went to Nanyang JC to support Yichao, who was an actor in his Chinese Drama CCA annual performance.

Although he didn't do perfect, he was totally talented. He could act. Haha.


And although I didn't understand about half of what they were all talking about. His act, and my laugh with the rest of them was worth my $8 ticket.


We guys should go out more often.




To reminisce the good old times in FTPSS, and to strengthen our bonds for ahead.




It may not sound manly, but this is a group that I really treasure.





For now, I can't comment yet about friends in NJC,
But for all I know, these friends I found in FTPSS even those who weren't there today, are unforgettable group of friends.







I miss the so-called "best years of our school life" in FTP.


Sunday 7 March 2010
Disappointment.


"No worries, I tried my best.

Trust that there's a bigger picture behind all this.


I did what I could; Mistakes are bound to happen."








Knowing all these, why am I still feeling so down?


Saturday 6 March 2010
Kerana nila setitik, rusak susu sebelanga.

Before I explain what that idiom means, let me tell you that actually for once I confused myself today between the letter A and P.



Anyway, the meaning of that title/idiom is that "because of a spot of another liquid, a pot of milk is spoiled."






Went to bed early at 11pm last night [It's very early for a weekend night okay]
And woke up at 4.45am today for basketball training today.
Quickly brushed my teeth and made a bowl of cereals, then headed off the house to Toa Payoh Central.
I thought I wanted to use MRT to Novena, since we are assembling at Novena MRT, but I realised that Toa Payoh station had not opened yet.
And actually time was running out; It was 5.15am.
Assembly time=5.20am, so I thought of taking a taxi.
Wasted 6 dollars just to go to Novena MRT due to the extra charge ==


And when I reached there, the MRT was still closed also...
That was when I realised something was not right.
I opened my handphone again to ask the captain where they were all gonna meet.
And my eyes spotted the message to inform me about today's training again:
"meet at 5.20pm"



WHAT THE HELL..........
HOW COULD I MISREAD 5.20PM AS 5.20AM?!?!?!?!?!
And so I had no choice but to go home..
With what?
With no bus available yet, with no MRT station open yet,
Walking is definitely more preferable than running....


By the time I reached my home in Toa Payoh, my head was super tired and I felt like collapsing on the way.

I was right, I collapsed as soon as I landed on my bed.




What a great way to start the day.


Wednesday 3 March 2010
It just keeps accumulating.

As I talked about earlier, I was right, the exhaustion I had was yet to be the worst.



Far from worst.



All these questions I have in mind right now are very easy to answer, but I can't help wanting a reason for all of these.


It's all because I'm a Pre-university student now, not Secondary student anymore, as what teachers here will always say.



But then again, I can't help wanting to know WHY ==



Not only homework is piling up, I CAN'T DO 90% OF THEM.
It's not that I never try.
I try, try so much until I wanna strangle something as to why I can't get a single idea of what the questions are trying to ask me.
And back to tutorial class, when I tell the teacher I don't know how to do, they gave me disbelief looks, as if I purposely didn't do.

If this goes only for one subject, okay FINE.

This goes for ALL my subjects.

From the very start I knew Physics and Economics are gonna be a struggle, but thankfully, I'm grasping Econs now, slowly.

When I thought HOPED that I could cope with the GP and Chemistry stuff,
I found that GP class contain at least 2 persons with superbly-superb level of English. And the notes have at least 50% difficult words that I do not understand unless dictionary is right by my side.
And Chemistry's examples in the notes are handable, but the questions, are totally different stories.
AAAAAHHHHHHHHH ==


My appreciation for Physics is snail-paced.
I'm thinking now, why am I taking Physics when I actually prefer Biology? Okay, that was when during O-Level period. A-Level Biology is different.
But again, Physics need to understand the topics well to be able to do the questions. Biology = purely hardcore memory work.

I'm thinking whether I should have taken Biology instead. ==


Forget it, no use regretting now.



PW is starting next week, and I'll expect a high probability of struggles.
Not being unconfident, but looking at my stats now, I can foresee my short-term future.



In terms of basketball, I've got another try.
A couple days ago, I received sms from the captain.
Said that there'll be another 2 J1s players to be selected into the team.
Yes I was nervous; I think everybody in the J1 basketball is.
But I won't care so much.
If I can't make it this year, so be it.
Maybe there's a bigger picture.
Not trying to sound pessimistic, but I just have to try all I can. The rest, leave it in the Divine Decision.




Anyway, I guess what people say it's true.
Once you're on your way to A-Levels Exam,
O-Levels exam seem like so easy, and I mean SOOOOOO EASYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ==

To think that I actually groaned and complained during Sec 4 ==




My issues just keep accumulating.



Okay enough of my crap.