Let's just say it is true

Yeah, thats that. I get what I deserve. 

I mean, my marks for my mid year exam.

I practiced hard for e math. And I got back a kinda satisfactory marks for my own standard.

For english, paper 2 was the result of constant practice as well. Paper 1, composition basically, was a result of me not really concentrating on it.

And I failed my SS and HML.....

SS, I really thought I could do SBQs quite easily [OVERCONFIDENCE]..

Turned out I was wrong...

In fact from total of 25 marks in 4 SBQ questions, I only managed to earn a bare 4 marks.

What a shame.

A result of my overconfidence

I deserve it.

Higher Malay.

I just realised that my marks for it have been dropping since beginning of this year

And yet I couldnt care less

I chose to turn a pair of blind eyes and a pair of dear ears to that particular subject,

thinking that I will always pass, since thats what I am aiming for my O Level.

[COMPLACENCY] = =

And yeah, my paper 1 passed, 50/90

Paper 2, 46/110

And overall, i score 48/100

F***ing great.

It's okay.

I deserve it.

Another result of overconfidence and complacency.

Tmr will get A math paper. Wanna see how much I got for it.

Sciences paper made me shiver now. I hope I can prepare for the worst. == I didnt put my best effort in revising for them.

I always thought "Mid year only! Still have O level. This is just revising, nothing more!" [UNDERESTISMATING]

And I cant imagine what I would get already.

Why do I keep forgetting this quote : "What goes up, must come down"

Think that I would excel forever without doing anything? NO! ==

"Climbing up is easier than staying up" - My dad. 

And why the hell do I keep forgetting it ==

Let's review what else make me not putting 110% effort in revising this time round.

1). Games. yes. games and games. I play so often at the expense of my studies. Not that I neglect studies. But I play more and I study with game as my motivation. "After finishing this, I can play already!" This is what I always think. SO, I ended up rushing my revision just so I can play games faster. Wrong, wrong moves =.=

2). Laziness. Another one.This is a result of COMPLACENCY and OVERCONFIDENCE, as I brought it up earlier.

3). Ahem. These personal feelings that distract me a LOT LOT LOT. Caring so much for these during my revision time was a TOTAL mistake. I gotta stop myself. Maybe I should really stop having feeling at all? Better to freeze my feeling. At least till O level ends == This may be the biggest problem I have now.

For people who have fallen down again and again, I now know how you guys feel. Let's not give up okay. We still have time.

110% effort from now on.

No more games during revisions.

No more personal feelings interfering with work.

The starting line was from me. The finishing line must be from me as well.

"What's past is past. Champion or not." - Steve Nash.

For people who have backed me up till now, parents, brothers, friends. Thanks a lot. I won't disappoint myself and you guys anymore.