Last school day. Ever.

And I realise, after this period,

It's the last time I'm gonna wear a uniform, the last time I'm gonna call myself a student.

Time sure flies warps.

In less than a blink of an eye, I've been studying in NJ for two years.

It's been a period full of bloodbath,

Full of tears,

Full of disappointments,

And also full of joy,

Full of laughter,

Full of memories.

In this last lap,

A truly last one, as a student,

It's now up to me to make the change.

To make the leap of faith.

It's now time to prove the statistics wrong,

To beat all the odds,

And to go against the current.

All these while, there were only rehearsals.

The actual performance is nearing.

It's now my turn, to outdo and outperform myself.

For the pride of God, my family, my friends, and of course, you.

I'm not being ungrateful.
I'm not being childish.
I'm not being foolish.
I'm not being remorseful.


I just want some time alone.
All by myself.
In isolation, distant from the outside world.
Within my self-constructed barricades.


Nor am I intentionally keeping a distance between myself and the people around me.

But after what happened today. I wanted to re-play the feelings.


Basically I went home for my much-needed sleep after an overnight study.
And when I woke up, my roommate was playing with the next-room neighbours.
And I had the whole room for myself, all by myself for hours.

It's truly been a while since I last enjoyed this room for myself.
And I've gotta admit, if anything, it felt relieving.


I wished for more.



So probably this is why I'm unconsciously pulling myself apart.

From people,
From the world,
From my own mind,
From my own feelings.


And what remains, shall just be me, and this void of laziness inside of me,
Slowly sipping the essence of desolation.

23:54
Up, up, and away!