I'm about to describe why.

I'm a being who attracts negativity. I think.

After being screwed by a subject I call my favourite (currently), i.e. Chemistry,

My brain suddenly drew a connection.

If I'm to be placed in the Periodic Table,

I'm probably somewhere in Period 1, in between Group V to VII.

Yeah I'm probably Nitrogen, Oxygen, or Fluorine.

The elements in the Table who have the highest affinity for negativity aka electrons.

That's what I thought.

Let's see again,

Okay, I can be positive at times.

But I can't be Group I metals,

'Cause I don't lose negativity and be positive all the time.

Could I be Carbon?

Technically, and biologically, yes I am.

Human beings are carbon-made organisms.

But in this case, no.

Carbon exists as neutral compounds naturally.

They don't get positive, yet they aren't negativity-magnet wherever they go.

So am I a Hydrogen?

It has equal affinity to attract negativity and be positive.

It is small.

It is explosive.

It is not special. It's common.

In the Table, it's placed away from every other elements.

Yeah

It has to be.

I've deduced it.

That's where I probably will be categorised in.

I can be positive, although I think nowadays I have such strong affinity with negative aura.

I'm small, literally.

My emotions don't really own a remote control.

I'm a mediocre being.

And it's probably best if I am put into isolation, away from everybody else.

Haha, nobody talks in such a nerd way about their own selves.

This is why.

Weird.

My writing mode surfaced at the time I least want it to appear.

I shouldn't be using my brain for this.

I should be working my ass off for my fucked-up subjects.

Or at the very least,

I should be brushing up my own smashed-into-little-pieces crappy self-confidence.

Nothing works.

Nothing helps to salvage the remnants of my optimism.

Now, anybody still doesn't understand what the title shows?

I was trying to say Negative.