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Thursday, 21 February 2013
Another Tumblr-inspired Q&A! 23 deep questions: 1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel? The former. 2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? People who looked down on me and verbally abused me a little during primary school days. Nope. Not anymore. In some ways, karma was served. In another way, I guess I've proven myself that I'm forgiving enough. "If you do not forgive your neighbour, your Father would not forgive you." 3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them? My Family. Express my eternal gratitude and my deepest apologies for things I've done and I haven't. 4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid? I'd tell people closest to me. Not everyone. Gonna spend my remaining days doing volunteer work, hanging out with the people close to heart, and travelling. Nope. If it is supposed to come, then it comes. 5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust. Trust. Because there can be Trust without Love but it's harder to Love without Trust. 6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not? Yes I probably will. Karma works, boy. There can still be some attempt to prove why he shouldn't. But in the end, if it's such an unreasonable boss, it isn't meant to be anyway. 7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most? The one I love the most. Being hurt by the former may prompt me to severe any forms of relationship remaining. But for the latter case, knowing me, I'll probably still love the person anyway. 8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say? I may end up reciprocating her feelings too, actually. But if it's not possible, then I guess I'll tell her honestly that I'm not feeling the same way and if I'll end up friendzoning her, then it's better for us to separate anyway. 9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not? My aunt. I'll have to find out from my mom if her sister left something important left undone/unsaid. And if that's the case, why wouldn't I make that little sacrifice? 10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? Not at first, but after getting closer, yes. 11. Does love = sex? Sometimes. Sex can be an expression of love. But love does not always require sex. 12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not? Case 1: if I'm single: Nope. But I'll probably go to the new employee and ask if he minds splitting the salary with me so that he can still get employed. Then I'll propose this to my boss. Case 2: if I have a family to support: then I won't. All's fair in love and war. Case 3: if I have a family but my financial conditions are decent enough: offer him a job myself as my personal secretary/driver/bodyguard/whatever works. 13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person? Heh. Sec 3, mid of 2nd Semester. Confessing my feelings despite the HUGE of possibility of getting friendzoned, which I did. 14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back? I do not love them back, because of the chances of hurting them bad due to the way I express it. 15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? Not too sure about this, but Family seems to hit the closest to home. 16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you? Hahaha. Fellow livfesync performers. After winning the competition together. 17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why? January, huh. Nothing big, except I'll probably not get too attached emotionally to a social butterfly at times only to realise that I'm not as significant to this friend as much as I think of this person. 18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not? Nope. Because I'm not qualified. What if I end up escalating the danger? 19.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision? FUCK. The hardest question so far. . .. ... .... ..... On my own decision I'd most likely let go of the stranger newborn. But my grandma would be very likely to let go of her instead. 20. Are you old fashioned? In some ways, yea. Not all. 21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it? Hmm, last week? 22. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why? The former, ANY DAY. 23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be? See myself from others' perspectives. Saturday, 16 February 2013
"Happy can already"? Been feeling a severe lack of zeal and vigour lately. And worse thing is, I only realised it after I read a fanfiction about Seven Deadly Sins. I've been seriously infected with Sloth. For this whole week. I just started repenting by working out again. And just a few moments earlier, I suddenly recalled a phrase that a bro told me before, many, many times a couple years back, although later I found out that this is used by a large group of people in general. "Happy can already" Yes, why worry about your life? Do things that makes you happy. Sounds simple? Not to me. Not sure if it's just me over-thinking stuff, which I really often do. But I'm not even sure what HAPPINESS is to me in the first place. Does my own happiness depends on just me? Or also on people dear to me? Or even people around me in general? Or even by non-living things as well? (Why not? I consider myself very much appreciative of my own MSI GE60, Sofie my guitar, or even, well, $$$ in general.) At first glance, of course it will look like my happiness simply owes its fate to me and my own actions. As long as I like doing my own things, living the way I normally do, there shouldn't be any reason on why I won't be happy. Then again, what if my actions disappoint, or even hurt people dear to me like my family? 'Cause as much as I like to immerse my own time in Need For Speed, singing, learning guitar, exercising, and admiring idols and role models who doesn't even know my existence, I'm damn certain that doing all this would disappoint especially my parents, who worked so hard for my expensive education here in Singapore. And if I don't bear the fruit of their labour, that would just make me an unappreciative, ungrateful imbecile. I can't make them proud then and that would also cripple my own mentality. But, but... I don't like studying. I really really really dislike studying. I can't even find anything I'm passionate and good at. This is truly an epitome of discovering oneself in life. As I go further in life, I don't find anything really exciting to study hard enough to major it in my Bachelor degree. On a side note, the only possible major I'm gonna enrol in now in SUTD is Architecture. I sure as hell shouldn't study Engineering. And there's a rumour that not everybody can choose what they want to major in. So the only way out is to get good results. Or at least that's what everybody thinks is the safe way. But with my own academic state like this, this kind of fate might as well be a laughing at my face and I should just give no shit, and move along. Although that doesn't mean I should. Maybe I'll just remove that as one of those usable quotes in my life. Humans in general are social creatures. In one way or another one person is gonna interact with another, and one's actions have an effect. The effects may be brief, small, ripple to many more people, or escalate. That includes me too. So realizing it or not, what I do will have an impact on people around me. Or even those not around me. If I simply do as I like, and some people affect my own happiness meter, Who's to say that my happiness only depends on me? Saturday, 2 February 2013 How fucking stupid and reckless of me. I didn't even realise that I haven't backed up my collection of basketball videos through out of my Sec 3 - JC1 times. I didn't even know where, or when it went away forever. All I know is that the memories that I made, the good times that I will always cherish, Have now vanished forever. And the only remnants from them, are those that are flash-able, hear-able, and feel-able in my head. And oh, probably some parts of this blog too. Especially the blog skins. All I wanted was just to reminisce those balling days by watching my old videos. And then I found out that they are nowhere to be found. I must have forgotten to transfer them before re-formatting my old laptop. Fuck me. It's purely my negligence. And this stupid, terrible mistake have to be made. |