Probably just had the craziest night in my whole university, if not my whole schooling life. 

After finally submitting the final projects submission, I kinda get a mixture of feelings. 

As usual, here goes. 

Some part of me are really glad that all this is over, and that I've put my all, well, most of the time. More about that later. 

Some part of me are disappointed that despite the effort that I've put in doing work for long hours continously and even losing a night's worth of sleep frequently, I'm still not keeping up. 

I'm definitely improving. I just have no idea why everybody is improving at such an accelerated rate. They keep getting even better at what they're doing in a much shorter time too. 

The rest of me, well, it's just the feeling of "now what?"

But who am I kidding? This is only one module. 

There are other projects still waiting such as the Design Computation and Building Technology. 

Still, I guess a good night's rest this time won't hurt. 

Regarding about the part of me putting my utmost effort most of the time, 

I guess what I foresaw of myself long ago was kinda true. 

That my sudden decision to do an architecture course was justified. True, I have never been fit to even qualify as a student in the course, let alone become a professional practitioner on the future. 

Somehow, though, doing all the things that I couldn't do before has translated into improving my own well-being. 

I can say now that I probably are more observant towards spaces that I am in. 

I am able to learn how to think meticulously and in such split seconds too sometimes. 

And on top of it all, I can confidently say that the academic pressure from the constant bombardment of deadlines has pushed laziness away from me. More significantly than I thought. 

If I can think back at the start of this semester,

I was convincing myself that I wouldn't be a typical architecture student, with characteristics such as:

~not sleeping almost every other night

~not having leisure times

~coffee (or I should say, caffeine) becomes your best friend

~basically you live in your studio

Or so I heard. 

After experiencing a semester of the school, I realised that no matter how hard I try to run away, I have to at least accept some of those elements in my life. 

I may not be perpetually in my studio doing work, but I've consumed more caffeine than I have ever before in a few years, have sacrificed lots of leisure times (which include gaming and playing guitar) and have my fair share of sleepless nights full of work. In fact, I believe that I experienced my first sleepless night after just 3 or 4 weeks since archi school officially began for me. 

Wow, what a journey. And it was just 4 months. 

After having such vivid recollections, I think my adrenaline from an endless night of rushing my submission has just finally subsided, and I think I'm already starting to experience the after-effects of the crash. 

I guess that's that. 

And I think I can finally start allowing myself in the Christmas mood.